I feel so fake right now. Fake happy and contented. I hate the feeling. I hate that my relationship with the boyfriend is starting to get boring and habitual. I feel guilty.

Same thing seemed to happen again and again just because we've just gotten used to doing or saying things to each other, and not because we mean it. Same lines, same things, same taste of kiss same everything. We keep fighting over silly things. And fighting with the same people who have been trying to bring us down. I don't wanna say that they're succeeding but everything is just merely getting dull.

As classic a cliche it may seem, but i feel like i need space... I want to maintain a distance in which I am still in love with him. Because the closer i get, the more i see the flaws.. and the more it's getting hard for me to absorb and to accept.

I don't know how to do that. I don't wanna lose him.. i just need to breathe alone for a while.